62 Quotes by David Millar

The past is as important as the future, but we only live in the here and now.

The smallest issues can become the most important things in life and reality slips away.

It was ridiculous really. I had just won a major race despite not being in top form, yet I was going to dope.

I didn't care about goals or expectations any more, I was just determined to race my heart out.

I'd just killed some of the best riders in the world - and I was clean. I'd taken nothing - no EPO, no cortisone, no testosterone, no painkillers, no caffeine. I had justified to myself that I was a great rider without drugs - yet perversely given myself the green light to dope again. I'd proved what I could do clean - how much more could I do if I was doped?

Never before had I raced in an angry mood and I couldn't believe how powerful it was. Now I understood why Lance used anger so effectively and why he hated the people he had to beat at the tour.

What an idiot I'd been. What a spoilt brat. What a bloody fool.

I was not a doper, I told myself - I just injected myself to recover and needed pills to sleep.

Preparation was a term I was to hear more and more. It had another more sinister meaning. If you were prepared, it meant you were doped.