12 Quotes by Dennis Nilsen

Loneliness is a long, unbearable pain….There was never a place for me in the scheme of things….I had become a living fantasy on a theme in dark, endless dirges….I made another world, and real men would enter it and they would never really get hurt at all in the vivid, unreal laws of the dream. I caused dreams which caused death. This is my crime.

Loneliness is a long unbearable pain,

I have judged myself more harshly than any court ever could.

I caused dreams which caused death. This is my crime.

I am damned and damned and damned. How in heaven's name could I have done any of it?

I have started down the avenue of death and depression of a new kind of flatmate.

I don't lose sleep over what I have done or have nightmares about it.

I wish I could stop but I could not. I had no other thrill or happiness.

In the morning he was lying dead on one of the beds fully clothed. He was dead. I got the impression he wanted to go, and I must have killed him. I can't remember strangling him. I just sat there shocked.