16 Quotes by Hazel Hayes

Crazy is the space between what they tell you and what you know is true.

I had never really thought about the horizon before. It was always just there. I stare out now through my rain-spattered windshield at that sharp, bluish line beyond which the whole world might simply fall away, and I imagine a life where buildings block my view in all directions, a life where the horizon isn’t just down the road. Sitting here now, that life feels almost inconceivable.

To this day I struggle to sleep when I’m expecting someone home; some part of me still won’t accept that people who leave will eventually come back.

I loathe the assumption that I will ‘come to my senses’ someday or – worse still – that my status as non-mother means I’m somehow lacking in emotional range.

Don’t be ridiculous,′ said Maya, ‘You can’t fail at a relationship. That’s like getting off of a roller coaster and saying you failed because the ride is over. Things end. That doesn’t mean the experience wasn’t worth it.

But knowing something and believing are two very different things.

No matter how much I learned about death, I wanted to be able to blindly believe in something that might make me feel better, but I couldn’t bring myself to do it because I feel much the same about the Church as I do about dead bodies – that they can both provide consolation, but only if you’re willing to ignore some harsh truths. I find no more comfort from whispering in a dead person’s ear than I do from whispering to a made-up God in the dark. Though sometimes I envy the fools who can.