12 Quotes by Jennifer Castle

It was like how people find other people to be in love with, all random and accidental and lucky.

Now I lay facedown on the bed, sobbing for the womanwho once slept here not knowing that someday one of herworst fears would come true

Then I closed my eyes.That was it. That was Before. Now here we go into After.

Holding the knife with the blade against my palm, it became so clear how my life would only contain shadows now. Shadows of things gone; not just the people themselves but everything connected to them. Was this my future? Every moment, every tiny thing I saw and did and touched, weighted by loss. Every space in this house andmy town and the world in general, empty in a way that could never be filled.

The only thing I knew for sure at that moment was that David would be back.If I was gone when that happened, would he leave again? For good?David, do you know that’s a chance I can’t take?

It seemed like the only way to keep breathing was to focus on the here and now, moment by moment, keeping my mind frozen cold to anything else.

It was true. I wasn’t good with liking someone. my instinct was total self-preservation: show no sign of weakness. This was my pathetic way of being shy.

It’s fascinating, how they managed to wound each other so easily and accidentally.

And I am so tired. All the time. The kind of tired where you feel like you’re being tugged down into the earth’s core. Still. I look for moments of joy. When I see my children laughing. When I see something through their eyes, something I’ve seen a thousand times before and thought was stupid but now it’s awesome. I think kids exist mostly to remind us that not everything is stupid. That there’s still discovery in the world.