I think back to what Landon said about heartbreak, that if you don’t love the person, they can’t break your heart. Hardin repeatedly breaks my heart, even when I don’t think there are any more pieces to break.And I love him. I love Hardin.

Far from a normal-functioning relationship, but normal has never been our thing.

No tears come, only memories. Memories and regrets.

I feel as though I am ice and he is fire.We are so completely different, yet thesame.

My life before him was so simple and decided, now after him...It's just...After.

Hardin is like a drug; each time I take the tiniest bit of him, I crave more and more. He consumes my thoughts and invades my dreams.

I want him to look in the mirror and smile, not scowl. I need him to not think of himself as a monster. I need him to see the real him, because if he doesn’t pull himself out of the villain role, it will destroy him, and I’ll just be left with ashes. I just needed to get it all out because I feel like I’m drowning, and it’s hard to keep myself above water,especially when I’m fighting against the current to save him rather than myself.

My thoughts are all over the place as I fall asleep, and images of clouded roses and angry green eyes flow through my dreams.

He said he wasn't going to let this go, but he did. He let it go, and he let me go.