Every teenager in the world feels like that, feels broken or out of place, different somehow, royalty mistakenly born into a family of peasants. The difference in your case is that it's true.

My one true love remains my self... I dump myself occasionally to keep it interesting

Ducks, embrace me as your king!"--James Herondale.

Not to mention,"Magnus noted, "that Jace killed him. That would put anyone off".