But, though I was very much in lust with him, I knew from the start we were nothing like "forever." Maybe because forever is such a scary place.

Forever has no meaning when you're living in the moment. I wasn't ready for that moment to end.

...I know there's no such thing as forever. So what can we be, in the now?

I knew from the start we were nothing like "forever". Maybe because forever is such a scary place.