I wanted to keep him there to hold me up, to rely on, to remind that there were places we found in other people that were safer than any walls could keep us.

Maybe we love people forever. Maybe some relationships were derailed by time and circumstance, but somewhere in the background there was a place where that love still existed, where you were still those two people in that time.

Sometimes the beginnings of relationships are the hardest. People always say the beginning is the easiest, but two people trying to let their guards down and be open to intimacy can be hard too.

I think when we love people we offer them the opportunity to break the barriers that prevent them from finding the love they deserve.

As I observed him sitting there, a heavy look in his eyes, I longed to reach behind that barrier and pull out the warm, sensitive, passionate man I knew was trapped inside. There was nothing worse than feeling someone’s potential.

I had always been a sensitive person with tons of little cracks and as strong and self-reliant as I could act, it took very little for someone to enter those cracks and hurt me.

And you ask me why I love him instead of you...He showed me how to feel safe without walls.

Sometimes I miss you, which is strange, because you weren't at all the way I remember you.

He couldn't give me what I wanted, because he didn't have it to give. I saw an ideal of him and kept trying to get him to fit that mold because I didn't want to let go of the illusion of who he was.