After college I got a job and started working. This new career had absolutely nothing to do with my degree.

I avoided one-on-one situations, eye contact, and healthy relationships. Instead I took refuge in drinking too much, cheap sex, and sarcasm.

Everything around me affirmed there was nothing else I could do – yet everything inside me cried that I was not doing enough.

A lifelong movie I already knew the ending to

It's the only way anything will change. Because we are both mother and child, cause and effect, villain and victim

So this needs to be said, and so I will try to say it