Sometimes God allows what he hates to accomplish what he loves.

He has chosen not to heal me, but to hold me. The more intense the pain, the closer His embrace.

The truth of the matter is, Satan and God may want the exact same event to take place - but for different reasons. Satan's motive in Jesus' crucifixion was rebellion; God's motive was love and mercy. Satan was a secondary cause behind the Crucifixion, but it was God who ultimately wanted it, willed it, and allowed Satan to carry it out. And the same holds true for disease.

The greatest good suffering can do for me is to increase my capacity for God.