I have been at war with parts of myself for so long

Your fear of becoming a cliche is what turns you into one. If you remove the fear, we are all really walking contradictions, hypocrites and paradoxical cliches

My depth has no depth

A philosopher's main task is to compulsively filibuster

On a basic level- everything we say- essentially anything that comes out of our mouths is a rationalisation in some form or another