I can spend a lifetime like this, just sitting here with you like this.

You're my soulmate. You feel familiar, like someone I have known since before. You are at the back of my mind always.

He made you dependent on him so that your happiness depended on his and his depended on whether or not you agreed to what he said.

He knew how often I needed to travel to be sane, what my favorite places were, which seat I would choose in a restaurant, which songs I listened to depending on my mood, how I looked when I was hungry, how much sugar I would like in my coffee, what hurt me and what would fix it, when I craved a hug and how tight should that be, how to make out my mood from my voice and how fast my heart would beat if I was asked to address a gathering of five hundred people.

I think you're confused most of the times. You just go with the flow till all your choices disappear and you're left with just one path to follow. You postpone decision making. Maybe because most of the times you're scared of facing your thoughts or the reality.