seriously. “Just because you can’t experience everything doesn’t mean you shouldn’t experience anything.-Nicola Yoon, Everything, Everything

לפני כמה ימים, כשנועצתי בפלנטריום, כל כך התאמצתי למצוא רגע מפנה שהכווין את כל החיים שלי. רגע שיענה על השאלה, איך הגעתי לכאן? אבל זה אף פעם לא רגע אחד בלבד. זאת סדרה של רגעים. והחיים יכולים להסתעף מכל אחד מהם אלף כיוונים שונים. אולי יש גרסה של החיים שלך לכל אחת מהבחירות שאת עושה, לכל הבחירות שאת לא עושה.

From so high above it, the world seems ordered and deliberate.But I know it's more than that. And less. It is structured and chaotic. Beautiful and strange.

I know she's just trying to protect me, just as I was to protect myself a few short weeks ago, but her words make me aware that the heart in my chest is a muscles like any other. It can hurt.

prom·ise (ˈpräməs) n. pl. - es. 1. The lie you want to keep. [2015, Whittier]

I dream that I run away from home taking the bot I love with me. I dream that I saw the ocean and it was endless and that I could not find the end of it. I dream that I fall asleep in an unquiet room with the boy that loves me and that I dream that I've run away from home taking the boy I love with me. I dream that I saw the ocean and it was endless and I could not find the end of it. I dream that I fall asleep in an unquiet room and that I dream about the life I'm already living.

The ocean will swallow you whole and burp you out and not notice you were even there.

Into all lives a little turbulence must fall

He takes a breath 'In my head I've been in love before, but it doesn't feel like it Being in love with you is better than the first time. It feels like the first time and the last time and the only time all at once