Will you too leave if I turn into a failure, a version of depression that makes me difficult to love?

I don’t want normal and easy and simple. I want painful, difficult, devastating, life-changing, extraordinary love.

Hold me before it becomes too difficult for me to keep believing in love.

Why do I have to love women who are difficult? Whom I have to chase when I should be on the run?” “Because when it’s easy, you’ll feel it’s over, even before it has begun.

It’s easy for people to say “Don’t think about it”, only you know how difficult it is to delete it from your mind when it just keeps just replaying it all of the time.