Deserving anything related to money is a fraught concept for me, particularly when it comes to art.

So, money is good, and money is necessary, and money is that thing that tells you that what you're doing is not a fool's errand. But the money is also an albatross, changing your relationship to the art.

...the thing about success is that it doesn't seem like a natural result of unsuccessfulness.

Who am I doing this for and do they want what I want?