Hey lover,You knock on the door to my broken heart everyday and I don't open I locked it, for I cannot handle another apocalypse

I know you remember how hard I bit the word loveuntil it bled out of my mouthor how my lips trembled when I said you

Loneliness was an alchemist that turned me into gold. Men flock around me to claim a piece of my soul and place their ears on my chest to hear my heart beating slower than the hands of time. Yes, I let them but I so badly wish it was you. I am not easy to love, but then who really is? Treasures and gold I am, I am love and Petra and California too. I am a lottery ticket with the winning numbers, but this money is cursed When I stand in the sun, the reflection is you, you and all you.

I have accepted thatthis is how it’s going to bethat love and longingare going to take turns to sleep with me in my bed and though you may come and gothis pain in my heart is here to stay.

I swallowed my heartbreak like a bitter pill

Of my many misdemeanors, standing tall like a radio tower and airing love songs has been the worst.

Heartbreak made me an actorand a bloody good one.

This is the love but it's impossiblein this life time or maybe more

I am drowning in the silence you left behind