This time my dear I’ll let my demons take the lead ,I wanna welcome the sadness , the confusion, and the darkness with arms so wide open.I’ll finally face the person I have forever been trying to run away from.This time my dear;The greatest battle I have to win is the one I have within..

I became all the things I thought I’d never be…

Those demons crawled again under my blanket and they joined me in bed,They sang me a song of sorrows, wars, and all those flashbacks that fuck up the peace of my head.But that night ; I was deaf,So damn numb that none of them could affect me,None of them could bring me any kind of nightmares nor regrets.I had nothing to lose,had nothing to defend .So we hugged and traveled together through a world we only both enjoyed ; a world of nothingness and creepy emptiness …

She has always been fascinated with silence.For in silence she could sit and breathe nothing but the truth.She senses all the unexpressed feelings, the unsaid words, and the rotten untold stories in her chest.For in silence she embraces her solitude, she puts her pieces back together and creates a world of her own where she’ll always choose to live in and simply enjoy …

All the roads I’ve taken Took me back to myself To the dreams of that little girl I once did kill inside.To the laughs of that innocent heart I’ve naively dimmed its light.Everything has led me back to me And though I’ve felt the blissing, I’ve noticed the signs I still chose not to see …

In the darkness I sang all my angels to sleep So that I could awaken this beast inside It’s terrifying the way I am making so much peace with my demons and Cruelty;That I no longer feel any shame to hide …

Isn’t so scary that the person you used to daydream about is the same one who left you with so many nightmares?!

I have never been scared of the darkness, not even a little bit. In the dark you hear nothing but the truth, you see nothing but real faces and naked souls.On the contrary I’ve always been afraid of the light, where people talk about everything but never say a thing and where they wear a fake skin; because they do know that there is an eye watching or judging them here or there …

As disappointed as an empty diaryForgotten LonelyAnd this whole damn world has nothing new to tell me …