You will get it when you can handle it.

When we wake up in the middle of the night to attend the nature’s call, we try to stay sleepy. That is one of the most pleasant feelings.When realized people come out of their state of realization to do worldly chores, they get even better feeling which is called Bliss.

All your past Karma get cleaned in just one moment of realization, the realization that you are not the doer. You didn’t do any of it. You just got attached to the doer; you just copied the doer’s Karma on your Pen Drive. The whole data can be cleaned in an instant of realization.

Many seekers start "overdoing" it. They become like a fish that desperately wants to get out of ocean. Calm down. Fish can't get out of ocean. Ocean is all there is. And you're the ocean, not a fish.