I didn't want to be in a relationship that required me to erase parts of who I was

If only you could command your brain to actually do that. It would be cool to have some kind of remote control to switch off your thoughts. Thoughts off, Siri. Or, more positive thoughts, Siri. Forget about this thought, Siri. if only.

I started crying because this would all disappear including me and no one seemed to realise it. Did no one feel what I was feeling.

I have to choose me.

There was so much good stuff, and all I could feel was the bad

I felt her hand squeezing mine while we sat there gazing under the same sky

How could two people who were so lost be so complete together?

Drunk and alone and hopelessly in love with the idea that someday somehow it might just get better.

It was true. We were still soulmates.