If he is a coward, it isn't because he doesn't enjoy pain. It is because he refuses to act.

I don’t want to be just one thing. I want to be brave and selfless and intelligent and honest and kind.

Fear doesn't shut you down, it wakes you up. -Tobias (Four) Eaton

But I will find new habits, new thoughts, new rules. I will become something else.

I fit my mouth to his and he tastes like water and smells like fresh air. I drag my hand from his neck to the small of his back and put it under his shirt. He kisses me harder.

She can't possibly be me, though she moves when I move

I'm not abnegation, I'm not dauntless, I am Divergent

There are so many ways to be brave in this world. Sometimes bravery involves laying down your life for something bigger than yourself, or for someone else. Sometimes it involves giving up everything you have ever known, or everyone you have ever loved for the sake of something greater.

What is wrong with you?' I shake my head. 'Pull it together.' And that's what it feels like: pulling the different parts of me up and in like a shoelace. I feel suffocated, but at least I feel strong.