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Pain cannot be avoided, but it can be accepted.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":29,"quote_text":30,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":31,"source":32,"quote_tag":33,"commentary":9},2842063,"Maybe I have to stop trying to be one thing or another. Maybe I need to accept the ways I contradict myself. Maybe that’s what it is to be human.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":35,"quote_text":36,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":37,"source":38,"quote_tag":39,"commentary":9},2842052,"We can’t keep the people we love alive by putting our own lives on hold. In fact, we can’t put our lives on hold at all. Time marches on, even when we don’t want it to.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":41,"quote_text":42,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":43,"source":44,"quote_tag":45,"commentary":46},2842035,"Our convesation is awkward, as though our friendship is another skill that I remember but can’t use anymore.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],"**The Backstory**\nAlyssa B. Sheinmel, a young adult author known for her poignant portrayals of teenage life, likely penned these words in a reflective moment, perhaps while revisiting past friendships or relationships that had since fizzled out due to the natural ebbs and flows of growing up. The awkwardness she describes might stem from the pain of remembering happy times now lost, or the frustration of trying to recapture the ease and intimacy that once characterized those friendships.\n\n**The Hidden Insight**\nThe quote reveals a profound paradox: our ability to recall past experiences with vividness often outstrips our capacity to recreate them in the present. This discrepancy highlights the tension between nostalgia for what has been lost and the limitations of human memory to truly revisit and relive former connections.\n\n**How to Use This**\nTo apply this insight, consider that reminiscing about past friendships or relationships can be a bittersweet exercise. 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Girls can do so much at once.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":60,"quote_text":61,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":62,"source":63,"quote_tag":64,"commentary":9},2842000,"It’s 7:42 on a Tuesday when the phone rings. 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