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To see me slumped, glassy-eyed, holding a sandwich someone has cut for me into four “manageable” pieces, a person might tell you I look much more like a woman subdued.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":48,"quote_text":49,"author_id":5,"source_id":31,"has_image":18,"author":50,"source":51,"quote_tag":52,"commentary":53},3203044,"Religion seemed as good an escape route as any, plus it was conveniently compatible with psychedelics.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],"**The Backstory**\nThis quote is from Koren Zailckas' memoir, \"Smashed: Story of a Drunken Girlhood\", published in 2005. At the time, Zailckas was in her mid-twenties, having recently graduated from college and navigating the challenges of young adulthood. The quote reflects her exploration of spirituality and substance use during a period of self-discovery.\n\n**The Hidden Insight**\nOn the surface, the quote suggests that Zailckas was using religion as a means to escape her problems, which might seem like a critique of escapism. However, the nuance lies in the fact that she's not rejecting spirituality outright; rather, she's highlighting the fluidity between spiritual seeking and substance use as coping mechanisms. This tension reveals a deeper paradox: the desire for transcendence and connection can sometimes manifest as a search for escape or numbing.\n\n**How to Use This**\nIn today's fast-paced, often overwhelming world, professionals and creatives can apply this mindset by acknowledging the interplay between their spiritual or existential pursuits and their coping mechanisms. Instead of dichotomizing these aspects of themselves, they can recognize that their search for meaning and connection may sometimes take the form of escape or avoidance, and work to integrate these seemingly opposing tendencies to cultivate a more authentic and resilient sense of self.",{"id":55,"quote_text":56,"author_id":5,"source_id":31,"has_image":18,"author":57,"source":58,"quote_tag":59,"commentary":9},3203039,"Crushes weren’t a precursor to love, they were a precursor to having your heart chewed up like Shark Week.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":61,"quote_text":62,"author_id":5,"source_id":31,"has_image":18,"author":63,"source":64,"quote_tag":65,"commentary":9},3203036,"And narcissists don’t love themselves. They hardly have any selves to begin with. They put all their energy into the fake image that they wear like a mask. 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