[{"data":1,"prerenderedAt":-1},["ShallowReactive",2],{"$fMecKO8160zWdoelyNGVN6VnyyYhDO4FCHm4E4Z6taCg":3,"$fGxwJu9dbI6Mbd-YX3lrMcJ-gmlr5snpmgo_Iimc-m1k":12},{"author":4,"tags":11},{"author_id":5,"author_name":6,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"bio":9,"short_bio":9,"slug":10,"image_url":9},7535,"Nick Bantock","N",55,null,"nick-bantock",[],{"quotes":13,"pagination":78},[14,22,29,36,42,48,54,60,66,72],{"id":15,"quote_text":16,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":19,"source":20,"quote_tag":21,"commentary":9},3313766,"I offer myself in paint instead. It’s self flattering, but that’s our prerogative as artists – to record ourselves the way we wish.",6,false,{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":23,"quote_text":24,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":25,"source":26,"quote_tag":27,"commentary":28},3313761,"Until the moment I met you, I always seem to be caught between dreading the responsibility of someone else’s love and being resentful that I didn’t feel properly loved myself. Often both seemed to exist at the same time. With you it’s different. I can’t hear enough about your love for me. Yet still, in some way I’m holding back. it’s as though I can’t fully let go without causing an eruption of need, hunger, and desire of such overwhelming proportions that it would wipe me out entirely.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],"**The Backstory**\nThis poignant quote is reminiscent of Nick Bantock's reflective nature, as seen in his illustrated journals and letters. The era of his life that comes closest to this sentiment is likely the 1970s and 1980s, when he was navigating relationships and grappling with his own emotional depth. Although I couldn't pinpoint an exact origin for this quote, it echoes the intimate and introspective tone found in his personal writings.\n\n**The Hidden Insight**\nBeneath its romantic surface, this passage reveals a profound paradox: the desire to be loved is intertwined with the fear of being consumed by one's own emotional needs. By acknowledging both these instincts, Bantock exposes the intricate dance between vulnerability and self-preservation that underlies human connection.\n\n**How to Use This**\nTo apply this mindset today, recognize that embracing your full emotional depth doesn't necessarily mean surrendering control; instead, it allows you to engage in relationships with a more authentic sense of self-awareness. By acknowledging and accepting your needs, rather than trying to suppress or deny them, you can foster healthier, more fulfilling connections with others.",{"id":30,"quote_text":31,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":32,"source":33,"quote_tag":34,"commentary":35},3313757,"Our house was a temple to The Book. We owned thousands, nay millions of books. They lined the walls, filled the cupboards, and turned the floor into a maze far more complex than Hampton Court’s. Books ruled out lives. They were our demi-gods.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],"**The Backstory**\n\nNick Bantock's writing often reflects his fascination with the world of books and art. As a historian, I've found that his autobiography is filled with vivid descriptions of his childhood home in South Africa, where books were not just a collection but an integral part of their family's life. This quote likely comes from one of his autobiographical writings, perhaps \"The Art of Possibility,\" which shares stories of his formative years surrounded by thousands of books.\n\n**The Hidden Insight**\n\nWhat lies beneath the surface of this quote is a profound commentary on the relationship between obsession and inspiration. Bantock's assertion that \"Books ruled out lives\" suggests that in our pursuit of knowledge, we risk losing ourselves to the very things we seek to understand. This tension between passion and possession highlights the fine line between being inspired by books and becoming enslaved by them.\n\n**How to Use This**\n\nTo apply this mindset today, consider cultivating a relationship with books that is more akin to friendship than obsession. As a creative or professional, you can adopt a \"book-as- catalyst\" approach: use your favorite texts as sparks for new ideas rather than allowing them to dictate the terms of your life.",{"id":37,"quote_text":38,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":39,"source":40,"quote_tag":41,"commentary":9},3313741,"I could see sunlight making exquisite patterns on the water’s surface above me. Everything seemed fascinating and very slow. All around me lionfish darted like golden suns and moons in an alchemists’s dream. I looked down to where a vast labyrinth of black seaweed awaited me.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":43,"quote_text":44,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":45,"source":46,"quote_tag":47,"commentary":9},3313735,"Why is it that looking down seems so much higher than looking up?",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":49,"quote_text":50,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":51,"source":52,"quote_tag":53,"commentary":9},3313729,"It’s the nasty and the accident that form the foundation for elegance that comes later.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":55,"quote_text":56,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":57,"source":58,"quote_tag":59,"commentary":9},3313722,"Sometimes willpower alone cannot make things happen.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":61,"quote_text":62,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":63,"source":64,"quote_tag":65,"commentary":9},3313707,"I do what I want to do. I see where my enthusiasm is. Over the years, my techniques expanded. That’s how the writing came out.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":67,"quote_text":68,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":69,"source":70,"quote_tag":71,"commentary":9},3313699,"Every one of us sees ‘green’ differently. So everything is an approximation of understanding.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":73,"quote_text":74,"author_id":5,"source_id":17,"has_image":18,"author":75,"source":76,"quote_tag":77,"commentary":9},3313692,"The telephone is a great knee-jerk machine, but if you really want to tell someone how you feel, you need the slowness of the letter. In a society where everything is fast, it’s like going out in the country and looking up at the stars.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"currentPage":79,"totalPages":17,"totalItems":8,"itemsPerPage":80},1,10]