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It wasn’t easy, but after the truth was out, I felt like the world was lifted off my shoulders.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],{"id":49,"quote_text":50,"author_id":5,"source_id":25,"has_image":26,"author":51,"source":52,"quote_tag":53,"commentary":54},3456619,"Its so very hard, to know just what to say, except that you are thought of, in our prayers and sympathy.",{"id":5,"author_name":6,"slug":10,"author_name_first_letter":7,"article_count":8,"image_url":9},{},[],"**The Backstory**\nThis poignant quote is likely from a letter written by Susan Smith, the American murderer and domestic terrorist, to her children, Alexis and Michael, after she drowned them in a lake in South Carolina in 1994. At the time, Smith was going through a tumultuous period in her life, struggling with depression, anxiety, and a failing marriage. 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