But all this, all this shift and change, thought Bellamy, is part of the vast lie which surrounds me and wherein I move from one fantasy to another. I wanted to escape to solitude and darkness in a holy place, but the dark is just the old dark of meaninglessness and falsehood, which separates me from my friends and from the real world where people love and help each other.

Only sometimes at night when I think that you live now and are somewhere, I shed tears.

We shall meet, but as strangers. It is the end of an era. A whole part of my life is torn away.

The only cure here was death. They were both gone out of my life.

Some inner organ would give way, her heart would literally break, if she did not see him soon.

Perhaps that was the only time which we should ever, ever have together. Perhaps it was something which would never, never, never come again.

I must think of him as vanished utterly and gone forever.

Oh why is she going away just when I want so much to be with her! She is the answer to the riddle of my life.

He felt as if something had been completed and he would never see any of those people again.