14 Quotes by Chloe Caldwell

I feel drawn to the word "unmoored" during this time. I look it up a few times a week. I stare at the definition on my computer screen. I love the example sentence Wikipedia uses, which says, Left unmoored, the boat gradually drifts out to sea. It pops into my head when I wake in the mornings, while I walk the streets, wait for the bus, the train, get into cabs, eat lunch alone, and browse the shelves at the library.

I used to think that every eventful thing that happened in my life would feel as good as moving to New York City did, that my life would be like moving to New York, over and over and over again. I know now that as with falling in love, you're lucky if it happens to you even once.

In Buddhism, the term hungry ghost refers to the person whose appetite exceeds their capacity for satisfaction.

I feel New York inside me when I talk too loudly, when I’m in line for coffee and feel rageful and restless, when I ask inappropriate and personal questions of strangers. When I say, ‘Oh, I walked,’ and people look at me quizzically and say, ‘That’s a long walk.

In the book The Fantasy Bond, Robert Firestone explains that children need to believe their parents are good, that everything is well and loving, because if they see the truth, they will crumble in the face of reality. It’s odd my mother would say something that profound because of a CoverGirl blush. Even now, it embarrasses me to think about – that she nailed me so hard.

I Don’t Do Drugs I Am Drugs.

I always want to feel good and I never want to feel bad. Because of this, I’m experienced in substance abuse issues.

I decide to hone my joy. I dance around the kitchen to Judy Garland’s Greatest Hits on the turntable. The sun on my chest, I spin in my socks. Bruised, exhausted, and fluttering back to earth.

All I wanted was simple and yet the hardest thing to find: a sense of well-being.