35 Quotes by Madeleine Ryan

In my mind's eye, I'm wearing golden armor, adorned with roses, and I'm riding a winged horse, and I can feel the wind on my face, and I can smell seawater in the air, and I'm wielding an enormous electric-blue sword, which is cutting through all of the delusions, and lies, and I'm galloping, and galloping, and slicing, and slicing.

I want to be very conscious of this moment, and appreciative of it. I want to breathe it in, rather than scare it off through being neglectful, or insensitive to its presence. I want every shooting star I've never seen to know that this glimmer of hope hasn't passed me by.

It occurs to me that my sexuality is more fluid in my mind than it is in 3D. I often wish that my sexual desires were more malleable than they are. Being solely attracted to men sucks. It's like suffering from an irreversible case of Stockholm syndrome. I'm drawn to the very creature that has violated, oppressed, exploited, raped, kidnapped, subjugated, controlled, made fun of, manipulated, abused, belittled, objectified, persecuted, and condescended me and my people for centuries.

I worry that intimacy and tenderness are becoming impossible ideals, rather than lived experiences. Surviving on this planet right now seems to be more about figuring out how to withstand being violated and exploited than it is about cultivating fulfilling relationships with ourselves, and with others.

I get so tired of being a woman, because I can never seem to be "done" in the way that others want to "do" me. I just want to take my body off, hang it on a hook, and grab some air, because every stroke, whisper, request, poke, brush, smile, squeeze, lick, kiss, and breath can feel like a fight for territory.

The earth has a multitude of mountains, and rivers, and flowers, and volcanoes, and oceans, and types of grass, and snow, and wind, and lightning, and rain, and thunder, and sun, and cloud, and sunsets, and sunrises, and no two lightning strikes, or sunsets, are ever repeated. Ever.

I don't trust or understand the things that people make or come up with. I feel safer with nature. It's just there, for everyone to see, touch, taste, smell, and hear. There's a simplicity to it that puts me at ease.

I just like having something edible to look forward to.

Energies and emotions affect physical reality just like sound, and gravity, and electricity, and music, and oxygen do. They breathe, and expand, and throb, and rush, even if we cannot name or understand them. It doesn't matter where we're from, or what we believe, or what language we speak. Millions of us are feeling and exact same way, right now, and we are united because of it.