45 Quotes by Meredith Russo

I think I'm allergic or something. I feel kinda strange... sort of floaty and light-headed.""You ain't sick, hon," Mom said. She kissed me cheek and hugged me so tight I thought I might break a rib. "That's joy.

Everybody's got a pas. " he said. "That dosen't mean you can't have a future

Everybody's got a pas. " he said. "That doesn't mean you can't have a future

Earnest people," she said, as if that should mean something to me. "You're just so repulsively honest that you can't fake feelings when you have to.

I have a past, okay? And you really don't want to get involved with it.''Everybody's got a past,' he said. 'That doesn't mean you can't have a future.

If I were gay and I heard everyone around me constantly calling everything they don't like gay and yelling 'fag!' at the drop of a hat, maybe that would make it hard to come out even to people I care about.

I thought of going the rest of my life pretending I sprang to life from nothing at sixteen years old and felt my cheeks flush with shame and anger. I was so tired of cowering. I was so tired of hiding. I wanted to tell the truth, to say it out loud.

I put one of my headphones back in, watch the road drift by, and try not to think about how Eric couldn’t hear me at the water park, and how my secret is still safe, and how Eric looked cute without a shirt on, and how I wish I didn’t even think that. It had been a mistake to think to tell him. I push the truth down. Bury it. Stick a grave marker on top. What’s one more year of life as a boy?

My thoughts drift to Mom and I wonder if I would have been able to tell her how I felt wrong in my own body, if she would have understood. Mom was sensitive, and soft-spoken, and always kind—even to people I could tell she didn’t like. I think she would have loved me no matter what.I guess I’ll never know.But I can hope.