240 Quotes by Paula Hawkins

Louises Trauer war wie der Fluss: konstant und doch nie gleich. Sie konnte Wellen schlagen oder alles überschwemmen, vorübergehend abebben oder dahinströmen, an manchen Tagen kalt und dunkel und tief sein, an anderen reißend und blendend.

In no time at all, I find myself crying again. It's impossible to resist the kindness of strangers. Someone who looks at you, who doesn't know you, who tells you it's okay, whatever you did, whatever you've done: you suffered, you hurt, you deserve forgiveness.

The holes in your life are permanent. You have to grow around them, like tree roots around concrete; you mold yourself through the gaps.

I want to drag knives over my skin, just so that I can feel something other than shame, but I'm not even brave enough to do that.

Who's to say that once I run, I'll find that isn't enough? Who's to say I won't end up feeling exactly the way I do right now-not safe, but stifled? Maybe I'll want to run again, and again, and eventually I'll end up back on those old tracks, because there's nowhere left to go. Maybe. Maybe not. You have to take the risk, don't you

So who do I want to be tomorrow?

There can be no greater agony, nothing can be more painful than the not knowing, which will never end.

Life and light will not let me be.

For some reason, I am certain that there is something I'm missing, something vital. Perhaps this is just more self-deception, yet another attempt to prove to myself that I'm not worthless.