I do my best thinking at night when everyone else is sleeping. No interruptions. No noise. I like the feeling of being awake when no one else is.

Water is peaceful. I am at rest. In the water, I am safe and pulled in where I can't get out. Everything slows down-the noise and the racing of my thoughts.

What a terrible feeling to love soemone and not be able to help them.

Dear friend, You are not a freak. You are wanted. You are necessary. You are the only you there is. Don’t be afraid to leave the castle. It’s a great big world out there. Love, a fellow reader

Conozco lo suficiente bien la vida como para saber que no puedes contar con que las cosas permanezcan intactas e inmóviles, por mucho que te gustaría que así fuera. No puedes evitar que la gente muera. No puedes evitar que se marchen. Ni si quiera uno mismo puede evitar marcharse. Me conozco lo suficientemente bien como para saber que nadie puede mantenerme despierto o impedirme dormir. Eso también lo llevo dentro. Pero tía, esta chica me gusta.

You are driving me crazy. You have been driving me crazy for weeks.

Just like I will decide my life. No more waiting for other people to decide things for me. I'm writing it right now.

Angry at him for leaving without a word, angry at myself for being so easy to leave and for not being enough to make him want to stick around.

I reach over and take her hand. It's soft and war, and fits exactly in mine, and to be honest I'm not really expecting anything, but suddenly my entire body is wired, as id I've been plugged directly into the sun.