20 Quotes by Maude Julien

I have an increasingly powerful need for books, which throw a glimmer of light into my darkness.

The world was not ready for their wisdom. Yet they achieved great things in the invisible universe and their impact would be understood later, in the fullness of time.

Luckily, I have music and books to calm the pandemonium in my head.

If I make a mistake, she raps me over the fingers with her ruler. But she never hurts my spirit, she only hits me to correct my mistake.

She preferred art so she chose to become a painter. I look at the painting and can't understand how she could 'choose'. We do things because we have to.

Night after night I inflict abuse on myself, even drawing blood. It's strangely calming. I know the pain will stop whenever I want. I was the one who decided when it should start; I will be the one to decide when it stops. However much it hurts, I draw some comfort from the idea that I'm in control.

I can't take it anymore, I can't put up with this suffering I neither understand nor know when it will end.

I no longer have any fear of pain because I'm the one inflicting it and can decide when it stops.

I can't stand it any longer. If only I could will myself dead.